I am having an internal conflict.
My mind, body and feelings are all pulling me in different directions. I don’t know which direction to move. I don’t know which one feels right and I’m scared to move in the wrong way, in fear it could spoil everything.
I’ve learned through my writing and my living, that doing me, doing what I love, and getting my ‘passion pursuit’ on to the utmost degree, has proven well– for now, in life and in entrepreneurship. But what about in love? That’s right. Let’s get deep for a second. Because it’s easy for us to put ourselves out there and take all the risks we want, when we know it’s only us or our business we have to face at the end of the day.
But what if there is more on the line?
What if you’re scared to move, apprehensive that you might lose something or someone, meaningful to you, a chance or the possibility of a perfect ending. (Business-wise or fairytale story, pending your current intimacy levels)
How do we move ahead with that kind of fear?
I don’t think we can.
The only way forward is to live precariously with intuition and ambition, the same way we live the rest of our lives.
“Live life on the edge, but don’t fall off”
If we tip-toe, fearful of breaking the thin ice under us, the ice will always crack. But if we run, sprint, full speed ahead, letting our emotions take the best of us and casting ourselves faithfully into the wind– into fate and destiny’s hands, then somehow, someway, I think we’ll be alright.
Perhaps this is merely my overly optimistic, ‘warped by good karma’, way of thinking. Or maybe it’s the truth. Well, at least for now, it’s my truth.
I’ve decided I’m not going to tip-toe around anything or anyone that makes me vulnerable. Whether it’s a potential tech cofounder, or the crazy, consuming, I-can’t-live-without-you, love of my life. I’m just going to sprint, full speed ahead, not concerned if how I’m living or how I’m acting is making my chances of a future involving that partnership, unattainable.
Because if it’s meant to be, it’ll find a way to work itself out.
Think of all the people, all the choices in your life that ever amounted to anything. Yes, you were there to exploit the opportunity when chance presented itself. But, it took a greater force, a higher “power” to put that object, person, or business venture in your path. Whether you believe in God, free will, fate or destiny, we can all reflect on how chance has impacted our lives and altered our paths.
(by faith alone)
Having faith in this alone I will move forward with my choices. I don’t know where this will lead me, or what I’ll learn. Maybe it’ll even backfire. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be left crying with a diminishing love life, and an unforeseen amount of foreign iOS developers that refuse to work on a personal development social app startup venture with any kid who signs his name “KJ<>”.
But at least I’ll be closer.
I’ll be closer to my goals.
I’ll be closer to my dreams.
The path of my passion pursuit will be a little more clear because I’ll be weeding out what I don’t need in my life.
Everything else that wants to stay in my life, will find a happy and easy way to remain. As for other things that I find don’t belong, why waste time on them, life’s too short.
I want to know where I belong, who I belong with, what I belong to, where my value lies, and what I’m supposed to be doing next.
I will continue on this intermittent path of continued exploration because quite frankly even if it were to lead me no where, I’d enjoy the ride. A full lifetime of enjoyment. Instead of trying to get somewhere “I think I want to be” and later finding out it doesn’t bring me the happiness I wished for all along; I’m going to find my happiness now. I’m going to see where it leads, and that way I’ll always be able to look back on my experiences, with contentment.
I challenge you.
I challenge you, to step outside of your comfort zone, in any area of your life today, right now, and try to make a +connection with something or someone that has come into your life serendipitously, whether it’s a business venture introduced by a friend, or that person you bumped into on the train, on your way home.
Reach out to those things and people that this universe has thrown into your life and find out if they are going to stay in your life.
Cause if they’re not, then great, you can be on your merry way. But if they are..well then my friend, you have a whole new life ahead of you.
Make something of the unexpected encounters in your life.
The universe put them there for a reason. Find out what that reason is, and do something about it.
I look forward to hearing your stories! #PassionPursuit
When was the last time you were scared to pursue something?
How did you push past this speed bump?